But, it's theraputic.
And I need to.
Because I said so.
We are moving to Columbia in approximately one week, one day, and a few hours. It's finally starting to hit me that we're not going to be in St. Louis anymore. This morning at the Botanical Gardens, I realized that we only have one more Saturday to do our free visit...and one more Wednesday night to do the free concert. At this prospect, I was very sad. Tonight will be our last Muny concert, and we only have two more Sundays at church. I already had my last day at work, my last lesson student, and the packing has already begun.
It just doesn't seem real. I can't believe the summer is finally almost over and it's actually time for us to go back to school. I have to buy pens and notebooks again. I have to re-learn how to take notes and pay attention in class.... It's all just so wierd.
Don't get me wrong, though. I'm SUPER excited to take advantage of this amazing opportunity the Lord has literally laid in our laps. I get to play my flute again. I get to write. I get to teach more students. I get to work with my husband and actually be a team for once. How amazing is that? I am so blessed. At the same time, this is still a huge transition for us...and we are two people who, for various reasons, are a little transitionally gun-shy. Understandably so...however....there is something way bigger going on here...and I know we have to continue believing that:
God is in control.
He guided us...and now He gets to provide.
He loves us.
He will never leave us.
He will never leave me.
So...in the next couple of weeks as we prepare to leave...I will enjoy spending time with our St. Louisan friends and family and doing all the fun stuff one last time. I might cry a little and be tempted to give into my fear of the unknown road ahead....but I know we will be okay and that the journey we are on is making us stronger by the minute.
Summer 2006--months after I moved to St. Louis and about the time we started to date. This was taken moments before a torrential downpour.
On a float trip in 2007. Yes...Tom is steering the canoe. No..I didn't yell at him. Admittedly one of my prouder moments...
One month into our marriage--Summer of 2008--and our first night in our apartment painting our awesome blue walls:)
Second Anniversary trip in 2010 to Memphis: I'm standing on a scaled model of the Mississippi River that Tom and I both loved exploring.
Same trip...watching a lame 3-D presentation at Shedd Aquarium. Not really worth the money...but SO worth the awesome glasses.